mm today this new chick i babysit for rung up at like 11, i was still in bed. she wanted me to babysit so i did till about 2. that was boring. last night did nothing. except ritney called me at like 12 wanting to catch up but i couldnt be fucked. i was sleeping and hey i wasnt going to get out of bed to hang out with someone i havnt seen in 2 years who pretty much ditched me for a cock sucking whore. mm.
georgia has started her shit again? yeh knew that was coming.usually i would be all pissed off and upset. but i really dont give a flying fuck. chloe is pissing me of.chanel kind of is.mum is being an irrit. ive gotta go back to school and ive done fuck all homework and tonight i have to babysit so im pissed off i couldnt go out last night actually thats why im kind of pissed off at chloe. but im going out after babysitting i know they wont be late cos they have a new bubba now. ive been smoking too many ciggies and drinking too much coffee and i feel quite disgusting.
the only person im not really pissed off at is benn, miss him heaps. i was shitty at him the last few days but thats over now. he annoys me when he is stoned.not because im against weed. but because it just changes people so obviously. and i dont like that. reminds me of levi. after a few cones benn just got really annoying and seemed like a different person. actually thats happened to alot of people ive been close to. i only smoke weed occasionally now. and its actually so much more nicer. and i dont feel like such a fucking loser.
i really just wish i had a friend to talk to right now. ive done fuck all these holidays and havnt really seen anyone and i dont know where the fuck that 2 weeks went.
im freezing and tired and i miss benn and im angry at myself for being so......me and everyone is annoying and i just want to get smashed